Wow. It's been a while.
I am currently sat in Brooklyn Roasting Company on Saturday 11th March, actually feeling quite nervous to write again on NevNYC. And to be completely honest with you all, I am not quite sure why that is.
For those of you who frequently visited the content I upload here on NevNYC, you will notice it has been a solid month since I last uploaded a post. Which for me is quite unusual. But as I begin to really grapple with my recent routine changes, I feel I owe a blogpost talking a bit about what I've been up to in the past month, and more importantly where I have been.
I thought I would take some time to talk a little bit about how my year is going so far. And I can't really talk about it without mentioning something that has become a bit of a struggle in recent months. Anxiety. For some reason, this year so far has been my biggest struggle with anxiety and what it means for me. Discovering its trigger points, and coping methods has been something I've been dealing with. I don't want this post to be a "woe is me" post, and believe me that is not its intention, but I feel it is important to address issues like this. Back at the beginning of January when I was visiting London, is when I remember it starting to become more present than usual. After many wonderful conversations with Gino and my family, we put it down to the looming change coming my way post-April's graduation day. And honestly, I think this is a huge factor. 2017 is the first year I have entered without the surety and comfort of a fully scheduled, academic year. A minor thing for some, but a huge trigger for me. After an anxiety attack on the bus back from Boston back in early February, I decided that time to really re-structure and re-organise, was needed. And that is exactly what I have been doing.
Change is inevitable, change is daunting BUT change is good. Flipping around how I am thinking about post-April 17th, has really helped with those anxious thoughts and feelings. Instead of focusing on what is ahead, I have really taken the time to focus on the NOW. And if any of you know me, this is a new concept for me as I am ALWAYS looking to the next thing. I have really allowed myself to take in what is going on right now and it has made for some of the greatest moments in my life.
Gino and I celebrated our one year anniversary together, which is just INSANE to me. One whole year spent with the man I love. I could not have asked for a better celebration. Gino actually was jetting off to Canada on the evening of our anniversary, however when he returns we have plans for a competitive "English VS Italian" cook-off. I mean what better way to celebrate our relationship than with a bit of healthy competition. But seriously, thankyou for this year Mr. Puntonio, I love you with all my heart.
Another major thing that has been happening in the past month was rehearsals for The Merchant of Venice, which we performed on March 2nd. Rehearsals for this project at school has really been occupying the majority of my time since the beginning of the year. And it honestly has been one of the most incredible and unique experiences of my life. With direction by the WONDERFUL Barbara Rubin, and a cast of such amazing talent, the rehearsal process has been a gift. It was actually the first Shakespeare text I have worked on, and it will most definitely be one I will always remember.
At the moment I am in rehearsals for my contemporary series at school and I have been cast as "Drew" in a production of Christopher Shinn's, Teddy Ferrara. We have been in rehearsals with our director Michael Bradshaw Flynn for about a week and so-far, so-good. Its shaping up to be a really interesting piece of theatre.
A really wonderful experience I had recently was doing an interview for a fellow-blogger-turned-friend Elishia Merrick. Elishia runs a gorgeous website/blog called "English Girl in New York" and you can check out the interview HERE and some of the gorgeous shots she took, below.
All photos taken by Elishia Merricks from EnglishGirlInNewYork
I guess what I've learnt so far this year is that ultimately, what feels like a giant step backwards can feel like a huge step forwards. From each experience, positive or negative, we learn and we grow. Taking time to really be present and focus on certain projects can sometimes feel like a negative, but taking the pressure off of certain things can lift off unnecessary weight. I feel refreshed from the time I have taken to focus, and I cannot wait to get back in to the swing of things with you guys. I hope you are all doing well and that your 2017 is cracking up to be a pretty amazing year.
Happy Sunday Everyone.
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